'now i ain't sayin she's a gold digger...'

but you know what kayne? i think im a gold digger. and i am perfectly fine with this. the other day my friend joe told me how much he doesnt like working and how much better it was when we were in high school and didnt have to work or worry about working. and i completely agree. i dont want to work. i want to retire. now. i cant though. because im not rich. but i want to be rich. so i dont have to work. for awhile i fought this attitude. not anymore, and here is why i am fine with it:

1. 'but before ye seek for riches, seek ye for the kindgom of god.' it doesnt say i cant seek for riches, just that i should be sure to seek for the kingdom first. great. ill keep that in mind.

2. i am probably not going to love my work, so i would like to make money and get out of it. and i am fine accepting this fact. i realize that some people LOVE their jobs, but the majority just dont. do i hate the law. no not at all. in fact the place where i am working isnt that bad at all. but i cant think of many things that i would LOVE. well, perhaps being a striker for real madrid or a sportscenter anchor, or being paid to just follow people around and make commentaries about their lives, but those opportunities have passed. so if im not doing something i just LOVE, and i have to do it all day, then i want money out of it. otherwise i should just start training, move to spain and get ready for tryouts.
2.a. even if i did LOVE it, i would probably get sick of it. one of the things i do LOVE, is teaching. i taught sunday school for 4 years. somehow, my calling always involved sunday school and subsequently teaching sunday school. but as much as i loved it, after 4 years, i wasnt sick of it, but i wasnt loving it as much. it was still very enjoyable, but i realized, that it was still great because i didnt have to do it each and every day, and that as great as it was, it wasnt as good as when i was first doing it. so even the great things will get old.
2.b. no matter what my job is, or how much i enjoy it, i know i will always rather be at the beach, traveling, or just spending time with my family. my work will keep me from those things that i really love and cherish (cutestory?). if i have to be kept from those things i would rather be doing, then im going to pursue money. screw you world. making me work. fine, ill play your little game and go to work. but im going to get money while im doing it and take my family on vacation to spain, or ibiza if im still single (just kidding mom....well, probably kidding) and sit on the beach, and then we'll see who is calling the shots in life.

3. i like to sleep. money will facilitate that. so since i am going to be doing law, i better make money to compensate for the type of work i will have to do. because in law, you are basically helping the good guys or the bad guys. the good guys are truly innocent people or people that have been legitimately injured by another person and are deserving of some type of compensation for it. the bad guys are of course the people that hurt others, or insurance companies. it appears, that i may be working for insurance companies. here is an article about one of the cases i was assigned. my assignment: figure out if there is any case law out there that would somehow make it so the burden of proof is on the plaintiff. 'basically,' says the partner, 'we want out of this case, see if there is any way out.'

'oh yeah sure. alright. that sounds great. basically, lets see if we cant get out of it so that this poor girl's family wont receive any sort of consolation or compensation for our boulder crushing their child. clearly the boulder came from the property that we insure. yeah, that sounds like a project i'd love to take on. it makes my conscience feel good. ill get right on that.'

if i was representing the good guy, id sleep fine at night. that may not always be the case. if i really have to represent the insurance company here, i better have a sweet bed, luscious pillow, and other posh and unnecessary amenities to rest on at night to help me escape from what i have to do during the day.

4. im going to have problems in life anyways. i dated a girl that came from a good chunk of change. and it made me have some reservations and concerns. and i think that its because i didnt come from a ton of money. we were definitely comfortable, but not buying helicopters or horses. so i think i viewed money as some sort of evil and something that would cause problems or, well, im not exactly sure. i think i felt that people with money are more heavily tempted or susceptible to be lead away by the devil or something. im not exactly sure, because that logic is flawed. here is what i do know, no matter who i am or where i am at in life, im tempted by the devil. i have a ton of debt right now and zero wealth, im totally broke. im the opposite of rich, yet im tempted. rich and poor are going to have trials and temptations. no money doesnt equal no problems. and sorry biggie, but actually, mo money cant equal mo problems, just different ones. there will always be problems in life, and id like lack of money not to be one.

5. money will score me a wife. so im not old, im only 26, so we havnt really hit desperation dating times or measures, but honestly, when didnt money help guys score babes? im not saying all women are gold diggers. i am a gold digger. but not all women are. but when was the last time you ever heard a woman say she didnt want money? never. they may not seek after it, but all women want financial security. it can only help me. either, ill score a legitimate woman and she will be even more attracted to me because i gots the benjamins, or ill score a trophy wife that is only marrying me for the money. either way, ive got a wife. and isnt that the underlying principle? get married. must it be for love? well, probably should, but those types of requirements become secondary when you move into desperation times. and im totally fine with the woman only wanting me for my money. 1. im a lawyer, ill protect my assets. 2. im a pretty entertaining guy. im sure that even if shes not in love with me at the start, that i can get her to come around. ill just remind her that she has to eat every day, and so if she is going to eat, then she might as well go with me to dinner, since im going anyways. and im sure after enough times of taking her out, she'll eventually grow to like me, heck, maybe even fall in love with me. if not, ill just buy her that baby blue volkswagon convertible beetle shes been wanting.
so am i lusting after money? no. and lust is such an ill sounding word and makes money sound evil or something, which, as illustrated above, its clearly not. lets spin that. basically, i am realizing that obtaining money comes down to lots of hard work and utilizing your talents. i may have a talent for obtaining money and i feel i should look into it. lusting? no. actively dedicated to developing my talents, progressing and improving myself by effectively utilizing my time and energy? ah, yes. definitely.